I asked Makaylah if she wanted to write an article to accompany these photos, half of which she chose, half that I’ve chosen, that represent our favorites from a couple of recent shoots.
All my life, my family told me that I should model, but I don’t think this is what they had in mind. On September 16, 2018, at 18 years old, I did my first nude shoot ever. The days leading up to it were difficult on my nerves. I couldn’t believe that I was going to be my most raw self in front of someone that I had never met.
If you would’ve met me before last year, I would’ve never done this. I used to struggle with my body image. I’m a big girl; I’m 5’8 and weigh about 250 pounds. Only recently have plus sized girls gotten love in the media, and growing up in the time I grew up in—the media was very influential on my self-esteem. It was EXTREMELY hard growing up with this body type, because small girls were all the rave.
When I walked into Scott’s house to shoot with him that first time, I had no idea that that day would be the day that I learned to love myself no matter what anyone else thinks, no matter what the media said. He would take some pictures, then he would show me them on the camera. I was floored by what I saw on the small screen. I didn’t see the number on the scale, I just saw myself—naked—being beautiful.
Ever since I’ve started nude modeling, I’ve had girls reach out to me telling me that they wish they could be as beautiful as me, or that they wish they could have the same confidence as me. The thing I’ve learned is that comparing yourself to someone else will never result in happiness. You can never be as beautiful as someone else, because everyone is beautiful in their own particular way. My advice to anyone who is even thinking about nude modeling is: just freaking do it. Just do the damn thing.
Nude modeling has shown me that my body is art. I want to share my art with all of you, and this is just the beginning.
More of Makayah’s art can be found on her Instagram.