(Stasia and I first shot together and kindled a friendship in June 2019. We had the good fortune to be able to meet up for a long afternoon of shooting at the end of December 2019 up in Atlanta, GA. These are her words.)
“Desperate cry for attention,”
“Pornographic,”
“Depressed…..”
When I look at the body of art that I have been a part of so far in my short modeling experience, I don’t jump to words like these. In fact, when I look at the work that I have been allowed to help create I see more positive things, affirmations of self love, and being able to show people that being proud of who you are is perfectly alright.
I have been able to work with some incredible artists along the way that have aided in my journey of discovering myself. I believe that they are a major reason that I have not felt like my work so far has been anything more than just that, art. I am amazed by some of the things that I see people that I follow on social media and admire do in front of as well as behind a camera, composition that I can’t imagine anyone putting a negative connotation to. I have also met like minded people that are so supportive of each other.
Scott is someone in particular that has always been supportive of not only my modeling, but my personal life from day one. He has seen me go from a happy go lucky person knocking out hours of shots without thinking twice to hating the idea of opening my eyes to answer anyone’s messages. During the time that I let my modeling fall off because of those opinions of the close-minded, he was patient and welcoming to me when I realized how much I wanted to come back.
These photos that were taken this particular day in this particular airbnb will always be some that mean something special to me because I see them as more than just some really beautiful artwork that I was able to help create; They are photos that I can look at and see that I am growing and constantly finding new ways to become more of myself and to express it to the world. Six months from now I could be booking nothing but nude themed photo shoots, or I could be booking fashion and promotional shoots, or I could be booking nothing at all. The crazy thing about the world is that it is always changing, and it always goes on. I’m along for the ride now, and I’m holding on with all I’ve got.
So people can keep asking:
“Why are you doing this, you look bad,”
“Who are you trying to impress,”
“What do you gain from being naked,”
“Why do you need attention like that,”
Those are stupid quesions. They all have the same answers for me now, too.
Who the FUCK cares?
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